How I’m Attempting To Take Care of Myself

I woke up at 3am without reason, and it’s my day off. So, I just got up and made coffee while my cat, WillyBean, had kitty dreams. As he sat twitching and snorting I began reading my self-defense homework. (My mom bought me a 6 week self-defense course for Christmas) and then began reading Grace’s Style Book. I’m loving both things so far…cause ya know, I want to be beautiful AND kick ass. Which is totally possible. I’m hoping with the self-defense course will come a greater self confidence.

Anyways, back to my resolution…to take better care of myself. Things that I’ve been thinking of that need to happen:

  1. Brush my teeth every night and morning (yes, gross, but I have a hard time motivating myself once I’ve gotten in my pajamas to brush my teeth. I always do in the morning though…my dentist is going to hate me.) I bought floss yesterday too, so that’s a thing.
  2. Keep my apartment clean. It’s a mess with dishes and takeout boxes. Food is definitely my biggest mess right now. Which brings me to my next point:
  3. Eat more consciously. I have been eating out a TON because my brother is here to visit and we like to try all the vegan restaurants. When he isn’t here I resort to my little microwave. I’m too afraid to go to the group kitchen downstairs.
  4. Exercise. I need to start running again. I always have run with a goal in mind, whether it was to run a marathon or train for a certain event. I don’t have those goals any more…though I suppose I could set some.
  5. Shower every night. I swear I don’t smell guys. I’ve been a lot better at showing every night when I get home as a way to relax.
  6. Shave….yep. Shaving makes me feel sexy and I’m not ashamed to admit that…or well, I was until recently. I read Buffering (Hannah Hart’s new book) and she said something that stuck with me…this is not an exact quote…but she says it’s okay to be a feminist and/or lesbian who likes to shave. I’ve been so stuck in stereotypes or my ideas of what a “good/true” lesbian looks like. Honestly, it’s weird how many stereotypes have influenced my representation of myself. So yeah, didn’t mean to go off on that tangent. Shaving…good for me.
  7. Makeup and clothes. I think we’ve been over this.

So that’s what I’m working with.  I’ve noticed I start a lot of my sentences with “so” *note to self: stop that, it’s annoying*.  I’m going to try to dedicate each of these activities to a week or month. I need to get myself in a routine.

 

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About Amelia Clare

32 year old queer ethical vegan. Constantly questioning my existence in a world I feel I don't fit into very naturally. A pessimistic bundle of anxiety and depression.
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