Blogging and Life Parallels

Ever feel like you are mindlessly wandering on top of this big, round, ball of a planet? As it quietly spins I sit here trying to figure my shit out. And that seems wrong. Everything seems wrong, shallow, and meaningless. WOW…shit. I did not mean to get all depressing right out of the gate.

Basically, I’m confused. I’m so willing right now to work really hard at something. If I could only figure out what that is. I have this desire and motivation to build something, move towards a goal, find a community I can work with.

My life can be perfectly summed up by this blog. It too is lacking direction. I just have so many directions I could go, and as usual I don’t know whether to turn left or right. Go up or down. Can a blog survive, can I survive, without a specific topic or passion? I guess we will find out?

My problem is, I will get super passionate about something one day, only to find myself bored with it weeks later. I work right now as a receptionist at an animal hospital. I love it, but it’s not a career. It is, however; the first job I’ve had in my existence that I’ve been proud of. Everyone has always told me I should work with animals. I’ve always hesitated because I don’t want to deal with the politics. I don’t want to slowly start hating something I get so much joy out of right now. I’m perfectly okay with volunteering and helping from a distance.

Here’s a list of things I want to do with my life or topics I’d like this blog to focus on:

-use my 3 years of apparel design to find a career/blog focused on fashion and makeup
-use my marketing degree in a creative way/blog about life decisions and finding my way
-work from home/be a blogger
-read for a living/blog about books and review
-own a home/document the journey to getting there

Anyways, I’ll figure things out. I’ve always been kind of a late bloomer. I just feel particularly late on the career train. All my friends, specifically the friends I went to college with, are either on child 4 or successful self-made business women. And I’m over here living paycheck to paycheck. Whoa is me, I know.

Dear Self, no worries. You will figure things out. Life will come together when you least expect it. Love always, Amelia.


Me during one of my happier times. Feeding strawberries to  my dear friend Melvin who resides at Farm Sanctuary in Orland, California.

 

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About Amelia Clare

32 year old queer ethical vegan. Constantly questioning my existence in a world I feel I don't fit into very naturally. A pessimistic bundle of anxiety and depression.
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5 Responses to Blogging and Life Parallels

  1. Aleeha says:

    Life doesn’t have to be focused in one direction. The beauty of life is that you can do what you want, you can make choices, and you can make more than one choice.
    Aleeha xXx
    http://www.halesaaw.com/

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  2. anjage says:

    Career, kids, house on the suberbs… Reality pushes us all in the same direction and it takes a courage not to blindly follow it, to simply live your life and ponde on its sense. Enjoy the time of searching for an aim in your life/blogging. Xoxo

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