Beauty and the Beast

So yesterday I crossed something big off my bucket list…or, more my personal growth goals list. I went to a movie by myself. I thought it would be a whole hell of a lot more depressing, but I actually had a really good time. Yesterday morning I invited a friend from work to see the film with me. He said yes and then bailed the second work was over. I decided to go anyway. It was really nice to walk into the theater and just pick a seat. My choice. I didn’t have to deal with the “where do you want to sit?” dance that occurs when you go to a movie with someone. I chose a seat immediately on the isle. I also tend to really worry about people having a good time. There is always a low level of anxiety coursing through my body. I’m acutely aware of the person I’m with and enjoy the experience a little less. Yesterday I can say I was relaxed, put my feet up on the seat in front of me (no one was sitting there), and just sank into the movie.

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I thought the show was great. And I’m no Disney princess kinda girl. But, I mean, you can’t really go wrong with Emma Watson. And, though I might be a little bias, I think she did a lovely job. I really enjoyed the music and costuming. Also, maybe I’m hormonal right now, but I seriously almost cried when Belle walked into the library. That’s the other benefit to a movie alone. I can get all teary eyed over a children’s movie without embarrassment. Because, yes, I almost cried when Belle said “I love you” to the Beast too. God, who am I!? You would think, in my fragile post break up state, that I wouldn’t be able to or want to set foot in a romantic movie, but there I was, having a good time. I say “post break up state” and realize it’s almost been a year. Ugh. Wow. That just kinda hit me. Still feels pretty fresh.

Next big goal is to go get a meal by myself. That’s going to take some courage. A mass amount of courage I don’t have at the moment. But soon my friends. Soon.

In conclusion, go to a movie by yourself. I dare you. I think you’d be surprised about how it feels. I’d be curious to hear other’s experiences in going to a movie alone. How’d it feel for you?

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About Amelia Clare

32 year old queer ethical vegan. Constantly questioning my existence in a world I feel I don't fit into very naturally. A pessimistic bundle of anxiety and depression.
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